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Eng: Feelings while leaving

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“Hello, I am the German!”  I don't know how many times I said this during the past 10 months. I said it for fun, I said it to introduce myself. I said it when people didn't know me, when they knew me too well, but also just randomly. I said it while I was trying to hide my accent as good as possible, or with a horrible accent.   But in Germany, I am not “the German” anymore. I am “die komische Komponistin die ein Jahr in Amerika war”. (the weird composer who spend a year in the USA) People aren't making fun about my German side anymore, just about my new American side.  10 month ago, I had my bags packed and I couldn't wait to leave the life that was normal for me. I left to live a new life, to make new experiences and to find a second home. Just now I realized, it will never be the same anymore. I grew up this year. I learned so much, from living on my own, to being myself.  I see my life with different eyes now. Instead of seeing the small prob